Birthday wishlist

I'm not sure if that has ever happened to you but when it comes to say what you want for your birthday as presents I can't ever think of something too clear. I think I already have everything I ever wanted, and to ask for more material things would be such an unnecesary waste of money.


A catnap in the ghost-town of my heart:
I could ask for a couple of tickets to The States to live that day with my boyfriend but I'm aware I can't ask for such a thing. I could insist to my parents for a new mobile but I don't need it that much. I could ask for clothes or shallow things but I don't need them. I could ask for things to be the way they once were in the past but I wouldn't be enjoying these days, the happiness I have deep inside for being such a lucky person. I am aware of the importance of my family, my friends and my boyfriend. Past experiences made me who I am ...
Well, if there is ever a thing I could wish to last forever is to keep my loved ones close until my dying day.

It is still hard to remember those days when Mom was notified with a cancer and I couldn't even imagine my life without her. She thinks I'm strong enough to face it, though. But I am not. Since then I started to see things from a different way. Have you realized how delicate we all are? How close we are to death? It comes just to stop breathing for a couple of seconds, or crash your car against another, to fall off from a bridge, or even to choke with a tiny but not well-bitten piece of meat to cease living.

I want to live, I want to accomplish my dreams, I want to love and to be loved, I want to breathe the smell of fresh grass under my bare feet, I want to hear the birds singing in the morning, I want to see the clouds and to imagine different figures with them, I want to see the full moon in the darkened sky. I want to see the sun rise in his eyes as I once did, I want our hands to hold each other, I want to feel your warm embrace, a beautiful kiss, but above all, I want to be aware of what I have...

I want everything I have.


(And I'd still give my everything to love you more.)